Wednesday, January 10, 2007
hai..buhay nga nmn,.
pnuh q ba e2 uumpishan?
mgla2bas lng aq d2 ng nrrmdmn..
gs2 q lng xang mailabas pra mbwasan ang sakit.,
aun,.
pnuh ba?!?
hai..mtgaL ng nwwLa ang nrrmdmn q sa knyah eh.,
pro bumbalik lng tLgah xa tuwng xa nmn ang ngpprmdm pag d aq ngprmdm.,
gnun lgn cguroh tlgah un nOh..
pg ikaw ang ngpramdm.,d xa mgpprmdm..
pg ikaw ang d ngprmdm.,xa nmn ang mgpprmdm..
hai,.sna n lng d ka mgprmdm hbang buhay..heheh,.
wLa lng..
aun.,nbbangag aq!!! heheh,.
ansayah kc ng buhay q..
22o..msyah.,
full of challenges,.or trials...
full of feelings..
msyah,.mlungkot..msakit.,kinkilig,.inluv..?!?..bangag.,nka2baleew.,
nkktuwa..nkktawa..naiinis.,nga2lit?!!?(cguroh sa mga nanakit..pro d n q nga2lit ngaun,.aykong mei galit aq sa isang tao..lalo na kng "kaibgan" q xa..heheh,.)
lhat na.,
hai...
tpos ngaun,.
as in..ngaun..nuh ba ngaun?!?..
january 10,2006..!
ang pnkamsayahng araw q.,harhar?!
jowk lng,.
ngaun araw na e2.,dumating n nmn ang mga probLema..
d tlgah aq nwlan ng probLma..
heheh,.
d nmn cgurOh probLma.,
mlugnkt lng..,
ala nmn kcng prOb dn eh.,ung isa lng..
hai..okei lng sna kng aq lng ang malungkot,.
o namomrobLma,.pro kng pti cLa o xa ang mamroblema.,
hai...e2 n muna,.
ayko tlgang nkkta ang **** q ng gnun.,
un pa ang ngpgcng saken,.
nkkgulat un,.hai..aykong nalu2ngkot xa..,namomrobLema at umiiyak,.
hai..pro.,kng mei mggwa lng tlgah aq,.kng meron lng tlgah.,
meon nmn ata.,alm q meron..kc..m22lungan q xa..
hai,.grabeh..umpsa p lng ng araw q.,prang wla na q sa sarili...
dhl dn.,kc nman..hai...tpos mppalyo pa q sa mga kaibgan q,.
hai...d nmn gnun,.pro prang...
hai..d q pa tlgah msbeh ng sakto d2,.d pa dw pdeng sbhn,.
pro..hai..nangyyri na ang mga naiicp qng mei pocbldad na mangyri,.
hai...sa tuwing naalala q ung knna..d q inaakalng mngyyri un s knyah.,
na mgging gnun,.hai..nkklungkot tlgah..pro dpt ng mg-umpsang mg-aus...
hai...sna mging okei n tlgah,.
pro buti n lng d q nakta un..d q nrinig un..
kundi,.bka wla n tlgah aq sa sarili..d q kyang nkktang gngnun ang isa sa mga
importanteng taO sken,
gus2 qng lumaban..pro d aq pdeng lumaban,.lalala lng ang sitwaxon..
at wla aqng krptang lumban..hndi dn aq mkklban..kc wlang mggwa ung lban q,.
hai,.buti n lng tlgah,.d q kyang mkktang gngnun lng xa..sna nire2speto dn xa.,
"tao nmn xa,.mei dmdmin dn..."
ms mbuti n rn cguroh ang umalis,.pra d n nyah maulit un..
hai...
hai,.isa pa..(enumerxon ba e2?!..)
*history repeats itself!!-tma ka kmbal..*
hai..nppncn q lng..lgeh n lng un nangyyri,.
cgurOh gnun tlgah,.pro 2wng nangyyri un,.
aq ang lgehng bumbgay,.
aq lgeh ang nggve up..
hai,.ms mbuti n cguroh un,.kesa xa ang mwla,.
ok lng,.
kht lgeh n lng...?_?
hai..pro mskt dn un,.kc lgeh kang nami2li.,
pro kht alm na nya,.bkt d pa rn nyah maiwsan...
bkt aq.,iniiwsan q..pra sa knyah..
kht sobrang hrap ang umiwas.,
sobrang hrap pgilan..
bkt prang okei lng sa knyah,.
bkt prang ok lng na msktn aq...
bkt prang wla lng sa knyah,.
pro xempre..kht gnive up moh n un,.
mhrap p rn..kc naaala2 mOh un,.
lalo na kng nkkta mOh cLa..
o kht d mOh mn cla nkktah..
pro aun,.
gnun lng tlgah,.wla aqng mggwa..
mhal q ung taOng gngve up q ang lht pra sa knyah,.
kht prang d nyah nkktah ung mga sacrifices q pra sa knyah,.
kng gno khrap ang gngwa q pra sa knyah,.
pro ok lng..gnun tlgah.,d kc gnyan..(hai,.ngwa q pang mgbiro..=(..)
(sna wLang mabuOng kng anOh mang "usapan" tungkoL sa mga pngssbeh q..dhL d nyOh dn aLm kng anOh ang 2nay na nangyyri..kng cnO yang mga yan,.maaaring d nyOh cLa kLa2.,at iniicp nyOh n ung kakila2 nyOh ung tnutukoy q..pro maaaring mali ang iniicp nyOh,.if u evr knw me..nd respect me as ur frend,.nd evn as a 'person'.,dont tok about me(na msama at d nmn 22o.,o d kau cgurado..)..bhind my back,.coz it's bter 2 tok it wd me..nd say ir ryt in front of me,.ayko lng kc ng mei naiicp n nmn n kng anOh,.na d nmn 22o..=(
tpos..aun,.alm n pLa nyah,.hai..d mn lng nyah cnbeh,.
bkt ngah ba nyah ssbhn?!?
pro wt if mali xa..?
hai...ska kng aLm nyah,.bkt ptuloy p rn nyah aqng cnsaktan!?
hai..gnun n ba tlgah ang mga taO..gus2ng-gus2 aqng saktn..
bkt?!.,kht wla nmn aqng gnwang msma sa inyOh,.kht nanahimik lng aq,.
bkt cnsktn nyoh aq..
bkt prang gus2 nyOh pa ata aqng mktahng nssktn.,
gnun ba gus2 nyOh,.? kc un ung pnpktah nYoh eh,.
na kht tnuturing q kaung mga kaibgan,.mga tunay?! na kaibgan,.
still..gnun ang gngwa nyOh,.pro bkt?
hai..nanahimik n ngah lng aq eh,.
at wla nmn tlgah aqng gngwang msama...
msma n ba ngaun ang mgmhal?!o msma n ba ngaun ang mailbas mOh ang nrrmdm mOh?!
hai,.mga kaibgann q kc kau..oo.,22o...
nd i respect u ol..nd accpt u as hu u r..
pro kng un cgurOh ang gus2 nyoh,.
kc prang n22wa p kau n mgkagnun aq..
wla n qng mggwa dn...
il just accept dat..kht mskt,.
hai...ayko tlgah kc ng gnun,.
gus2 qng mamuhay ng msyah,.at mntli d2 ng msyah...
kht sa frends lng.,pro "d lng"..kc i rily value my frends...
nd im rily hapee dat i hve my frends..,
dat r alwaes der 4 me,.through thick nd thin,.
kea sObrang thankful q kc anjn cla..
at least..nkakaya q..
hai,.d q na msbeh ung problema qng un..
coz i cnt fil anything oder dan pain,.
it was painful,.
bt i accept it..
actually,.mtgal n tlgahng nwwla e2.,
eh sa tuwng mei ngpapaalala sken,.
aun..
bumbalik?!?..
bumabalik ngah ba..o andn p rn,.at d q lng mrmdmn dhl ntbunan n ng sakit..
pro aun,.
heheh..lgeh nmn aqng ngle2t go...
i let go.,bt it is not dat easy 2 let go of sum1 hu is so important 2 u..
d q alm kng anOh ba tlgah...
pro dhl sau.,nklmtan q ang ibang taO.,
na nghhntay pla sken..
na umaasa..at lgehng anjn lng na nkaabang.,
id gven up one person just 4 u..
i chOse dat person,.bt dt person changed and went away..
la aqng ngwa..
bt stil,.i contnued wt i began..
im confused on wt i am filing 4 u..
bt i knw dt it wl stay 4evr..
kht d q n mrmdmn un...
hai..
d q maexplain ang sakit,.
mskt nga bah tlgah...
hai.,d q msbeh ang nrrmdmn q..
pro...cgurOh gn2 tlgah..
d na xa gnun kasakit,.
kc nsnay na aq n gnun ang nangyyri sken.,
kht cnOh pa un...
gnun dn...
hai..nakuh..
ang hrap pla pg snay ka na.,pro kht gnun,.
mskt tlgah..
nakuh..bka mgng manhid na q nyan,.pro ms mbuti un..pra wla aqng nrrmdmn,.
heheh,.
hai...
hai...nuh na kea mangyyri smen?
sa buhay q?!?
sa pmliya nmen?!...
*histOry repeats itself...*
.confused.
"hurt"
:behind a cLoud..der is sunshine..:
=i just cant stand d pain im filng ryt now...=
[i guess i just learned d art of letting go..]
+angeL_04+
=rinOa.tifa=
.cLoud.
-julian-
>daN<
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kng mei kapLing kNg iba,.
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didn't u thnK daT i wS gOnna gVe 8 up 2 u?
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